Inwards…

Last one year has been filled with immense amount of learning. Getting to know about newer ways of looking at life. Coming across concepts and thoughts, which go far beyond anything that meets the eye. Getting to know a completely new tribe of people, who are all evolved beings, still on the path of being ever evolving. Coming face to face with different dimensions of life and living, which were beyond my comprehension at an earlier time.

And while there have been all these great, pleasant looking things that showed up, I also came across certain things which on the face of it did not look that pleasing. Some harsh realities of life made me look at them and not run away. Certain people who already always were there, showed a newer side of them which I did not expect ever existed. A few situations did not turn out to be as I expected them to be, and thus caught me off guard.

In all, a year or so of immense revelations. One after the other, I came face to face with a phase of life, which was all about me being presented with things to take a note of. I must admit that not everything could manage a sane reaction from me, as I was caught off-guard several times. At times, it was others and at times it was my own way of being, which I did not identify with much.

And lately, I have been feeling an urge to slow down, and may be eventually pause for a bit, and allow all that which showed-up to make meaning for me. Make sure that I get the message that all these situations had for me. Ensure that I do not disrespect the universe’s signals, which were sent in numerous, unending ways all through the past few months.

So, honoring that urge and respecting what I am feeling about it, I have decided to bring to a halt my social interactions in the manner they are being carried on with at this time. I need to step-back, I need to pause, and I need to first make sense of all that came my way, before I move forward again in the direction that is meant for in alignment with my highest purpose.

A lot of thought has gone into it, and I know there are costs involved in deciding to put brakes, at this stage of my life. But after having put in enough deliberation and self-talk, I feel this a cost that I am prepared to pay. A gamble that is worth taking, and I am prepared to embrace whatever good or not-so-good it brings forward for me.

What I for sure perceive is that at the end of it all, whenever it happens, I will be what is best aligned with my highest self. My actions and thoughts will be more leading me to where I am designed to be made for. There will either be same people around me, or a change in that, but what will definitely change is my way of being with those who stay. I am expecting a phase of deep self-exploration and knowing myself.

The immediate steps that I am going to take is to be ‘off’ all social media platforms. Not because I think of them to be toxic, or time wasters. Because I firmly believe it is us who consume the toxicity from them, and it is us who waste time on these (if at all), and there is nothing wrong in these platforms in themselves. My reason behind staying away, for a while, or may be for a longer while, is to give myself as much time is possible with my own self.

Does this mean that I will not be contactable? Won’t I meet anyone at all or socialize? What if someone needs me to be there for them? What about my work commitments? Well, I will be contactable for sure, with the preferred medium being an email, and if not then at most a phone call. Socializing will take a back seat, barring a few already committed engagements, which I would like to ensure I keep at the shortest possible. If the word is ’NEED’, and it is thought through twice, there is no question that I will be there any time of the day, any time of the night.  Work, whatever and till whenever it does not interfere with my internal work, shall continue, so I will decide on it as it goes.

You know, even sharing this out loud, with you today, makes me feel better. I still am not aware how it all will shape up for me, or what it all will shape me into, but I am hoping that whatever happens is in alignment with my highest self.

Before I close for the day, I want to thank each one of you reading this today, for playing the part you played. My life is a sum of all that I experienced with you, and because of you. Good or not-so-good, I embrace it all and shall make sure it works for being a much wiser and pure being, once I am through with this phase, on the other side of it.

Till then, take care and be good.

Love,

DeepCoachRB